Dreams gone or just on hold?

Well I know most of yall that know me, know that I have been trying so hard to find a horse to qualify for Young Riders in dressage with. I have to say this drama at the farm right now has made my dreams go down the drain, and personally I didnt know what else to do beside just cry. I have been working on my horse for years to try and make her that horse for me but she can just not doing the flying leads, and tempis. It really kills me to think of selling her, and getting my "dream horse" but I have to say Em is my dream horse, just not this dream. Em has everything I love riding but if I want to do something I WANT TO DO, not my horse, I might need to part with her. If yall dont know I have owned this horse for MANY years, and I have been thru everything wiht her. And I quote, people say when I am riding her it looks like we are dancing together. Personally I am the only one this horse really trust, and doesnt try and bite. But there is a time and place for everything, and I want to start amking my dreams come true. Hopefully everything will work out and I can contiue to look for my dream horse and try and get to young riders by 2010!!!